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Thursday morning, I get up, get dressed and catch the bus to Stud to meet Timmy and Clare. When I get down to KFC, Timmy is the only one around, so I ring Clare, find out she’s on her way. Me and Timmy chat for a bit, while we wait for Clare. When she finally gets to KFC, we get on the bus to go to Knox. Upon getting off the bus, we see ticket inspectors checking the bus next to us, so we dash off in the directions of the shops. Tim doesn’t know a lot about what his girlfriend wants, so we come to the conclusion that silver is the best choice. We look in a few shops and finally found the perfect present for Tim’s girlfriend. When we’re looking at it, we see Doug walk past, so we call out to him.  He’s going to bowling that day with the boys. We take Clare past the Telstra shop, so she can activate her video messaging. She lets us go bowling and I have to put up with Jack calling me “Woman” every time I stand up to bowl, or saying “It’s because you are a woman” when I miss. He only does it because he knows it infuriates me. So I ended up Epic Failing in terms of bowling. Me and Doug went to JB to see if his copy of Robot Chicken was in, I ended up browsing the anime. So we meet the rest of the kids back at the bowling, then Doug, me, Cat and Becky get in Becky’s car to go home.

I get home after dropping Cat at work and have a little chat to James via MSN. Then I go and pretty myself up for Doug’s, what a waste. I get there and after an hour of shivering and getting stared at in my nice new dress and heels, I change into shorts, a t-shirt, my leggings and my JELLY SHOES!!!! Its fun to wander around and sing and I get to wear most of the guy’s jackets, cos they’re all cool. Ash and Teej get there around 11ish and the close team rocks up soon after. Who should be there but Jack…….sigh. Anyways, a bunch of us end up lying on the trampoline just talking, Jack starts to be a poohead and lifts up the trampoline. Now Doug’s trampoline isn’t in the greatest shape, so I’m off the trampoline. Then later on, the group decides to all have a feel. So I go inside and I’m complaining to Jack that I’m short and it sucks and all and he kneels down beside me. Then I’m telling everyone in the house how the kids on the trampoline are groping me and Jack says “What, like this?” and grabs a boob. Instantly my stomach drops, I give him the look and he releases, before seconds later grabbing it again! I go outside and sit with Paul and Timmy while we wait for Timmy’s mum. Paul and I have a rather heartfelt conversation about his relationship with Lea and the situation with Doug. I go inside and hang out on the trampoline for a little while longer, talking to Robbie and Cat about stuff. Me and Shona are dancing to My Sacrifice by Creed, me being an idiot and being overly dramatic, which ended up being fun. Then me and Doug have a discussion over stuff that’s going on in our lives, which was nice to reconnect with him.

We settle into the living room. We watch a couple of eps of Family Guy, which I find rather boring. Jack says “someone give me a massage, I’ll give one back” so I went and sat behind him and obliged…Ash is eyeing me funnily. Then we trade places and Jack sits on the top of the couch and I’m sitting on the couch. Then after he has given me a massage, he sits beside me. We’re just talking about stuff, then Ash and Teej decide that they want to go home. Jack offers to walk us home which we take as a good thing. It’s funny how a half hour walk can be finished in the blink of an eye. I say goodnight and head to bed.

Friday I wake up at 11, hang out the washing and spend the rest of my free time, attempting to write this blog. I start work at 4.30 and find out Jack is working 5-close. Work is a fun night, I get to hang out with Clare, Anar and Cat and be stupid with them. Jack keeps the “Woman” comments up, which is ANNOYING. We close and Clare and I go for a drive, letting me get all my shit out of my head. All in all the last few days have been so much fun, and making a new friend in Jack was just awesome.

Tuesday dawned bright and early, sunny blue skies and great plans for the day. I head on down to the bus stop, meeting Alec on the way. Get on the bus to find out that tickets have gone up 10 cents…shameful Metlink, shameful. So anyways we get to stud and I say bye to Alec cos he’s off to a computer store and RAWR! James is behind me. We walk down to Maccas to meet Chathuri and once we had, ambled to the bus stop. After a rather interesting bus ride to Knox, we get there; wander into a few shops, stopping at Sushi Sushi for Chath’s breakfast, T2 for some chroming (lol), and Borders to read. I looked for the PostSecret book to leave my secret in, but they didn’t have a copy, so I had to find something else to do. Hence the finding of the gun book for James. We’re walking out because it’s like 11.30 and we’re supposed to have met everyone at the movies at 11 and me and Liz spot the Grimmerie. We flick through, but put it back ultimately. Then who do I spot, but Eric. We chatted for a few minutes, but then head to the movies to pick one. I’m trying really hard to MAKE everyone see Twilight, but the consensus is Curious Case of Benjamin Button. We somehow manage to buy 14 tickets for 13 people. Then we spilt up for lunch and stuff.

Liz, me, Lisa and Kech end up in Salsas to talk and have lunch. Liz has a burrito bowl, and I had nachos XD. We’re sitting talking bout ENTERs, the future and stuff like that. Then we head inside to meet everyone else, but we get distracted and wander to phones, Cotton On Body (pretty bras!) and Teds Camera house. The pitfall of Teds was that a small gift stall had been set up in front of it. This stall contained Rubik’s cubes, a trap for Peter and James. I pulled James away to stop him playing with them. Me and Liz visited Dusk to smell candles and look at pretties. We found everyone in EB Games (why am I not surprised lol), looked at the Singstars and finally got in the direction of the cinema. I quickly stopped in Riot to pick up some embroidery floss for friendship bracelets, and then continued towards the movies. It wasn’t till me and Liz were inside looking around, that we realized that we had lost everyone else. A quick call to Peter and we’re in JJ’s, getting a crushed ice. Peach flavour is the way to go XD. So we finally all settle down in the theatre to watch the movie. We REALISE we have an extra ticket and are stressing over who was missing. Movie starts, not bad for $10 *indulges in teenage Brad Pitt fantasy* I’m falling asleep occasionally and laughing with Chath too. We get out at 5 and Liz has to rush off because she starts work at 5. The group hangs around for a little while before the boys all disappear and me, James, Chath, Peter, Xin, Edd and HBA go to catch the bus. Sarah walks down with us and then heads back to where she’s getting picked up from. We get on the 682, saying goodbye to Peter and Xin at the Lakes stop. We get off at Stud, then Chath, James and I get on the 691. James is not being lazy, but being smart because he had already paid for his ticket.

I get home and find out Ink has rung looking for someone to do a shift. So I say yes and call her back. If I hadn’t taken the shift last night, what happened later may not have happened. I go into work and let Ink know that my bro wants a job and that’s him outside. So I start work…its kinda boring and I’m not a big fan…but eh, favourite people are on. I’m talking to Robbie later on that night and I’m telling him bout the list of things I have to do before I’m 19. One of them is to get a boyfriend. And he’s like “I’ll date you. I think we’d work out well.” So I’m pretty shaken up and I go into the cool room to chill back for a moment. Catherine and him are both telling me to go for it, and I’m stressed. I don’t want to hurt Robbie’s feelings, but I’m not sure if I want a relationship. So I say yes, with conditions. Work is over, Ink drops me home and I’m all happy and confused. But then as I sit there talking to James and Clare, I have second thoughts. I go to sleep assuming I’m going to the beach the next day with a heavy weight on my mind.

I wake up at 7.30 on Wednesday morning. As I look out the window, I notice the clouds. I send a few messages to Ash, Teej and Lauren. We decide to meet at 10.45 at our bus stop. I send a message to Robbie, telling him that I’m not sure that I could handle a relationship. He assures me that we don’t have to do it. I go back to sleep to try and relax. At 10.20 I reawaken, get dressed and go. I meet the girls at that bus stop and tell them the news. They’re shocked and are all incredulous. We go to Dandy plaza for a day of shopping and Savers XD. As the day wears on and we go into more and more shops I get more stressed out, becoming quieter and quieter. Finally I receive a text from Robbie. He wants us to go back to being friends, because he realizes I was pushed into it and felt conflicted. The girls get kinda mad at him, but I reassure them that I’m fine and that I really don’t care that much, even though I’m pretty hurt at the time. We go into Savers and I break loose with the card. I buy clothing to make me feel better. A dress, three tops and a pair of shorts later, we’re heading back to Stud. All day, the girls have kept me laughing and happy and as I reach home I realize I am a much happier girl when I’m single. It leaves options open and I’m okay with not being with someone, I’ve done it all my life, so a little longer won’t hurt. Mum oohs and aahs over my new clothes and decides to try on my dress. Instantly it’s a war over who gets to keep it. I have dinner and hop onto the computer to blog. Afterwards I head off with Mum for a walk with the dog.

Life has been pretty interesting of late XD

The final evidence of Christmas was removed today. Our beautiful pine smelling tree has been chopped up into little bits and then loaded into Dad’s car. Kinda sad actually how we dispose of something that gives us joy for so long.

Phantom of the Opera soundtrack, Zutara and Starburst Squirts have become my addiction, phantom music because I have rediscovered my love for Gerard Butler’s voice. His rendition of Music of the Night is positively melt-worthy. And the Starburst, because that’s all the sweet things we have in our house right now. Zutara = epic win. Kataang/Zukla/Maiko/Jetara can stick it as far as I’m concerned. Theres something appealing about the dark, easily provoked Zuko and the sweet, strong Katara being shipped together.  This vid http://au.youtube.com/watch?v=CCEHdMiis7o&feature=related

is one of my favourite Zutara fan vids. *squee*

So the last two days have consisted of me playing Banjo Kazooie, attempting to clock it during the day and chatting on MSN to James/Roman/Chloe at night. Went out to dinner on Sunday night for Nan’s 80^th at Zagames…they have this double fudgy brownie dessert that is to DIE for and their chicken parma is pretty sweet too. Tomorrow should be fun assuming it happens. Going to movies or going shopping or going laser forcing XD

It’s the second last day of my cousin’s stay and I’m going to miss the little guy for all the hell he’s given me.

 I wake up this morning at 10.45 to find out all the pancakes are gone, so no breakfast for me. Then the shower goes cold because Liam decides a 10 minute shower is good, therefore no hot water for me. So I go to work feeling cold and hungry, to be met with the fact that there are 5 blue shirts working and 4 of them have made it their personal vendetta to police me and make sure I’m doing everything by the book. I haven’t done a burger shift in a couple of weeks, so I’m pretty slow and kinda cumbersome with two gloves and a pair of tongs to contend with L The void of customers means I’m sent on cleaning jobs, YAY MAINTENANCE!!! [/sarcasm] but the bright spark was that the boys came into work and I got to see Robbie, Doug and Evan J Finished at 3 and then went home.

I get home to find a silent house. Brothers and Dad are at the movies, so Mum and I have the house to ourselves for a few hours…its nice to not hear the TV blaring and 50 bajillion games all getting played at the same time. Mum has a snooze, I update my phone a bit and log onto PSC for a little while. Then Mum makes tato salad and I go off for some intense Banjo Kazooie action J Brothers get home and we have dindins…separate for a little while, then me, Liam and Jordan have a dance off in the living room with Channel V to dictate how we dance. The different styles of “the Sprinkler” were hilarious, accompanied with occasional farts from both boys and Liam busting a move to Lady Gaga.

We sit down to play Uno, first round, Liam wins, second I win, third round Mum wins. Then Liam gets the brain wave of “If I play Alana with my last dollar and I win, I get $2 back.” So mister brainwave decides to play me…big mistake. Two Draw Fours, a red Skip, a red 8, a green Reverse, a yellow Reverse and a yellow Draw Two are my hand, and I slaughter him, taking $2 in the process. Poor kid was knocked out before he even got a chance.

I love my cousin. Yeah he can get on my nerves and annoy him, but I wouldn’t trade him for the world. He is funny and loud and hyper and is super cute. He makes me smile with his silly comments, but he also has a serious side to himself that is only revealed when you really talk to him. He’s had a hard life and I can see struggles ahead for him…but he is such a bright little guy that is worth fighting for.

“When words fail, music speaks”

Music has truly become my world. I cannot live without the delicate inner melodies and harmonies that manifest in sound. The thought of something as simple as a guitar playing a chord bringing tears to someone’s eyes or a piano weaving stories on its ivory keys truly moves me. I make playlists, each to suit a different mood or maybe because the music is just beautiful. In a way I wish I could be more involved with music and its creation.

I started my appreciation of music at a young age. My dad has always loved his Motown and I grew up with a lot of Stevie Wonder and James Brown playing in my house. I used to put on concerts for my parents and I’d sing songs from Disney movies. It wasn’t until about grade 6 that my love for music really blossomed. My music teacher in primary school taught me so much more than I had ever known about it. Suddenly it was as though a whole new world had been opened up to me and I soaked up lessons like a sponge. I joined the band and the choir, loving to sing and to make the noises that had soothed my temper tantrums and excited my lethargic moods when I was little.

I hit Year 7 and found the school offered lessons for instruments, band and choir. I immediately took up the offers on all three and began to learn the theory behind. The intricacies that playing different notes at the same time created a want of more knowledge. I spent a lot of lunch times hidden in the practice rooms of our school. Year 8 and Year 9 flew by as I learnt more about music and its depth. I was lucky enough to get chosen in Year 8 to participate in an Eastern Suburbs school concert at Hamer Hall. Singing there in their choir fulfilled one of my life long dreams to sing on a large stage (even if it was in a choir). Year 9 I was introduced to punk music through a friend, and my adoration of loud guitars and intense sounds was created. When I began Year 10, I started the one thing I had always wanted, singing lessons. At first I was shy, not wanting to show off or be loud, but as I got more comfortable with my teacher, I was belting tunes at the most inappropriate times. It was that year that I first sat at a piano and found my newest love. Trying to work out a harmony for a song I was working on, I noticed that as I played the rest of the melody and the bass line came to my head. I kept playing and practicing, finding that I enjoyed it better than playing flute.

Year 11, I took a VCE class in performance and most lessons was left alone in the music room to play piano and sing. I became part of a band in the last few months of class and got to sing in front of a crowd(another of my life long dreams). Year 12 hit and I had to reduce the amount of music that I played. Dropping down to band once a week in order to concentrate on school was a hard choice, but I found a new place to play. At youth groups on a Friday night, I was able to go early and play their baby grand. I took to taking my music with me every time I went to church and youth group, getting any chance I could to practice on a bigger piano than my keyboard at home. At the end of the year, I was offered a place in a new band forming at our church with one of the leaders that I had gotten closer to over a camp.

Music influences my life and emotions so much. It is the air I breathe, the words i speak, the unwritten song in my heart. Certain songs have the ability to conjure up images of the past, or raise my thoughts to happiness. Writing and dancing to music gives me more freedom than any other activity ever has. It is stress relieving and connects me to other people. It gives me strength and allows me to weep in sorrow at the beauty. Even if it is created within the safety of my room, it still tells the stories and feelings that are locked up. I often think of the songs still waiting to be written and the lyrics that I could produce if I tried harder. I realise that although I may not be the best lyricist or greatest composer, my passion for music can reach more people and hopefully reveal the love I have for sound.

So lets see if I can get this right eh?

New Years Adventures

Twas an interesting night. Waking up on new years eve to find out I’m not going to Lea’s house because she’s getting a new piercing at 9 was lovely, considering I was just walking out of the house in my jammies. So there goes the idea of playing Pajama Guitar Hero with the girls. I head back to bed and sleep for an hour or two then message Teej to ask her what time she wants me over. Find out she’ll be out all day…meaning I have to hang around here till work and set up the tent in the dark…nothing we haven’t done before but still…

Hanging round here in my jammies, I need to find something to do…so I turn to the Xbox360 and look at the arcade. BANJO KAZOOIE on Xbox is the greatest invention ever! I lock myself in my bro’s room to play Mumbo’s Mountain and Clanker’s Cavern from 10 till 3. At this time, I’m in need of a shower and it’s nearly time for workies. Once I’m in my uniform and have eaten, Dad drives me to work…for 6.5 hours of HELL!

I get into work at 4.30 to find Lucas is manager, and is all uptight about prep/bulk, so I have to make more potato AND gravy for close. Then it gets uber BUSY cos every man and his dog decides they want a Snack Box with Popcorn Chicken…although positive was that David was in till 5 and then Rachel started. Jack and Sean are cooking from 5 onwards and this is where my hell begins. It is my first shift ever with Jack, and he discovers that I HATE being called “Woman”, so he uses every opportunity to blame all my problems on me being a woman. I go on break and get Maccas for people, failing to note that I only buy 2 cheeseburgers for the boys when they asked for 4. The guy at Maccas is slow and shit…so I go back to work and relax in the staffroom for 20 minutes. I come back from break feeling pretty calm.

My night goes downhill from there. Turns out Steph hadn’t done anything for me during me break, and I had a PILE of dishes in the sink begging to be cleaned. But top window doesn’t slow down till 8.30 so I don’t get a chance to do anything. This puts me waaaaaaay behind and I’m freaking out at this point. Jack continues to piss me off, Sean keeps me company by the sinks as I curse my head off at the customers. 9.30 hits and Jack clocks off, but doesn’t leave for another half an hour. In that time he becomes nice and can clearly see I’m pissed off. Hugs at the end and finally he’s gone. Sean leaves at 10.40 leaving me with heaps of shit to do. Thank goodness Joseph was there to help out, otherwise I’d still be there now. I leave work at 11.

Upon reaching home, I race through a shower and putting makeup on, all the while getting calls from the girls saying “Where are you? How long are you going to be?” I’m still putting clothes on when they get to my house. We run out to the top of the hill on Wentworth and then hit the soccer oval for midnight fireworks. Not many fireworks in that area, so we wander back up to the school, and then sit in the bus shelter and take photos of the four of us. We go back to mine and pick up my clothes and tent and sleeping stuff. Finally we reach Teej’s house.

So we are at Tierney’s, setting up my tent. Ash and Lauren are slightly tipsy, and me and Teej get the tent up in the shortest time ever = 5 minutes. Once the tent’s up and the mattresses are in, we get settled. We chat for a while bout random stuff, make a few calls to people and then watch the dolly video on Ash’s phone. “Ma Bouche” lol J. Suddenly bout 4.30 we all drop off to sleep. But at 5.30 I get a phone call from some random person…private number, and they ring about 4 times. I turn my phone off and go back to sleep.

We wake up at 10.30, and Lauren leaves while I’m still asleep. Me, Teej and Ash go and sit in Teej’s room and get changed. We pull the tent down and have crumpet breakfast. We’re sitting in Teej’s room eating when Ash goes “Guys! Look!” It’s bucketing down outside and I’m happy that we had got the tent packed before that. Ash’s mum comes to get her, I message Mum and me and Teej go sit in her car for a chat. Mum picks me up and I have a quick shower, dry my hair and wrap James’ present. Liam shows up at my house and chucks his stuff in Jordan’s room, then pesters Mum to come with us when we go up to stud park. I meet James out the front of Kmart and we walk and talk. My cousin stalks us, so we walk the long way around. He runs off before my cousin can come and embarrass me anymore. Mum is really supportive and keeps out of our way J. Get home and watch Season 3 of SYTYCD America eps 1-6, whilst talking to James/Roman/Chloeanne/Casey/Timmy.

And that, dear friends is my New Years!